Well this is my last work shift for the year 2010. This year I have worked on two opposite ends of the country in two vastly different Climates. So i figured this blog would be a quick edition of the year 2010 in my life
The year began with me in Fort McPherson NWT. I was there working for Co-op. New years Eve I think i just stayed home as far as I can remember anyways. Then in the middle of January I came home for 2 weeks which was greatly enjoyed and needed. Feb Mar Apr May I was working back in McPherson for Co-op. this had good days and bad days depending on what kind of mood the boss was in. There were days he was very hard to deal with and other days he was great. One of my favorite times was when the olympics were going on and we had the TV set up at the store so people could watch as they shopped and we could watch when we had a minute. I can remember watching the gold medal hockey game in the store after we had just closed and the 4 employees and myself just jumped for joy when Sidney scored the goal to win.
Spring came and I met Eddie and spent lots of time at his place unwinding with a cold beverage, eating and playing bingo there as well. This was my place to go along with Glen and Connies to get away from work for few hours.
In July I came home and started working back in here in Aug and have been ever since. I played ball for the summer and now play poker once every 6 weeks or so with the boys. I am seeing a great gal now and hopefully that continues.
All in all it was a good year i guess and hopefully it continues. To you and yours May 2011 bring nothing but joy and happiness
Peace
Thursday, December 30, 2010
Sunday, December 26, 2010
Christmas is done for another year
Well Another year of Christmas has come and gone. This year was a mixed week as Tuesday we buried my good friend who passed away. After that I came to work to find out they had given me the whole day off for Bereavement when I didnt ask. This was very much appreciated as I needed it.
Weds I just finished up some last minute preparations and Thursday I was off to Saint John to spend Christmas with my Grandparents which was nice. I realize each year how blessed I am at my age to have 3 of my 4 grandparents still alive. This is something I never take for granted. However like people everywhere I do think of lost loved ones. My grandfather passed away when I was 10 years old and the funeral was Dec24/1991. I miss him greatly and think of him often at this time of year.
So we got to Saint John around 130 and spent Thursday with my grandparents which was a nice relaxing day. We had Supper then relaxed in the evening. My grampy and I played crib and he beat me 2 out of 3 games. I dont win to often but he likes to play and I enjoy it as well. We then went to bed for the evening around midnight.
The next day my brother Jeremy and his Wife Emily got there around 1130 or so and brought with them Eggs, Bacon, ham and sausage and bread for toast and cooked up a wonderful brunch. We had a great time together eating and laughing. We then opened the gifts they had brought and the ones we got for them. After the brunch I decided I needed a nap. Once I woke up it was time to go to church for the christmas eve service. This was a good one hour service. We then came home and watched the original version of Miracle on 34th Street. I greatly like this movie. After that my moms friend Keith came over and spent the night there
Christmas morning We got up around 930 and opened our gifts. I got 2 nice jackets a couple of books, a few nice sets of pants and shirts. And I got a badly needed wallet. After that we had a good breakfast again. Keith then had to leave but later that day we had a wonderful Turkey dinner that my mom and grandmother made although I must take credit as I cooked the squash and it was terrific. After dinner and relaxing I again lost to Grampy in crib lol this time 2 straight.
After that it was talkin on the phone time and then sleep. This morning I got the 930 bus from Saint John and came here to work. It hasnt been to busy tonight which is nice. I think I am going to watch a movie after work which will be nice. I do work again tomorrow then am off for a day then work two then 3 off. So thats my Christmas recap. I hope everyone had a joyous time with the friends and family and everyone has a happy new year.
Peace
Weds I just finished up some last minute preparations and Thursday I was off to Saint John to spend Christmas with my Grandparents which was nice. I realize each year how blessed I am at my age to have 3 of my 4 grandparents still alive. This is something I never take for granted. However like people everywhere I do think of lost loved ones. My grandfather passed away when I was 10 years old and the funeral was Dec24/1991. I miss him greatly and think of him often at this time of year.
So we got to Saint John around 130 and spent Thursday with my grandparents which was a nice relaxing day. We had Supper then relaxed in the evening. My grampy and I played crib and he beat me 2 out of 3 games. I dont win to often but he likes to play and I enjoy it as well. We then went to bed for the evening around midnight.
The next day my brother Jeremy and his Wife Emily got there around 1130 or so and brought with them Eggs, Bacon, ham and sausage and bread for toast and cooked up a wonderful brunch. We had a great time together eating and laughing. We then opened the gifts they had brought and the ones we got for them. After the brunch I decided I needed a nap. Once I woke up it was time to go to church for the christmas eve service. This was a good one hour service. We then came home and watched the original version of Miracle on 34th Street. I greatly like this movie. After that my moms friend Keith came over and spent the night there
Christmas morning We got up around 930 and opened our gifts. I got 2 nice jackets a couple of books, a few nice sets of pants and shirts. And I got a badly needed wallet. After that we had a good breakfast again. Keith then had to leave but later that day we had a wonderful Turkey dinner that my mom and grandmother made although I must take credit as I cooked the squash and it was terrific. After dinner and relaxing I again lost to Grampy in crib lol this time 2 straight.
After that it was talkin on the phone time and then sleep. This morning I got the 930 bus from Saint John and came here to work. It hasnt been to busy tonight which is nice. I think I am going to watch a movie after work which will be nice. I do work again tomorrow then am off for a day then work two then 3 off. So thats my Christmas recap. I hope everyone had a joyous time with the friends and family and everyone has a happy new year.
Peace
Friday, December 17, 2010
What Cancer Can not Do
Cancer is so limited...
It cannot cripple love.
It cannot shatter hope.
It cannot corrode faith.
It cannot eat away peace.
It cannot destroy confidence.
It cannot kill friendship.
It cannot shut out memories.
It cannot silence courage.
It cannot reduce eternal life.
It cannot quench the Spirit.
It cannot cripple love.
It cannot shatter hope.
It cannot corrode faith.
It cannot eat away peace.
It cannot destroy confidence.
It cannot kill friendship.
It cannot shut out memories.
It cannot silence courage.
It cannot reduce eternal life.
It cannot quench the Spirit.
Thursday, December 16, 2010
When Doubt and Faith Collide
So I am laying in bed early this morning (4-5AM) and I begin to think. In the bible there is is a story of the disciple Peter in a boat during a storm and he sees Jesus walking on the water. Peter then calls out to him and says "Lord if its you bid me come." Jesus said to him "come". So he begins to take a few steps on the water but then looks around and begins to panic then sink. It ends with Jesus reaching out his and and grabbing Peter and asking why he doubted.
Well I was thinking about that story and the times in peoples lives where they are at a crossroad in their lives. Maybe its a place of decision where they are not sure which way to go. Then after alot of thought, prayer, consideration or talking to people they figure out which way to go or which road to take. Just before they begin to take the road they have chosen they ask for one more sign "Lord if its you bid me come" And they are certain they hear the word COME. So alot of times in life when we make first make those decisions they are sure its the right way to go and we get part way down that road or couple months or even a year later we start to doubt ourselves. Was this really the right thing for me to do? Is this really the job I was supposed to Pick? Is this the spouse I am supposed to be with? And those doubts just creep in ever so slightly even though things might still be going ok. All of sudden in many cases I find that people over a period of time begin to doubt those decisions they have made. Its at this point I realize in my life I need to remember the steps I took or someone took before making the decision in the first place. I need to remember asking the question "Lord if its you Bid me come" and the people I talked to, the careful consideration I undertook. And most of all I need to Remember the answer that we heard "COME".
Even those times I doubt the decisions I've made and begin to backtrack or doubt the reason I made them in the first place The Lord is there reaching saying "Oh yee of little faith, Why did you doubt?"
I look at my friend dying in the hospital and events like that when the prayers doesnt look like its going to be answered the way I want can really make someone question their faith and beliefs. I think to myself this person has 3 young kids and I cant for the life of me understand why the Lord doesnt heal her because in my heart of hearts I know he can. But then as I begin to maybe have questions (which are ok to have and doubts which are ok to have) I hear the voice saying COME. I am reminded of the verse that says. "His ways are higher then my ways, his thoughts are not my thoughts" meaning I m not meant to understand everything that happens in life. But what it all comes down to is this, Do I still believe? Do I still trust? Is the Bible still True, Is God still at work.? And When I examine myself the answer way down deep is an absolute YES. I have seen to much, experienced to much been changed to much to doubt now. I remember in a course I was taking once someone asked a question about why we can't understand certain things about God meaning things that happen or don't happen etc. And The answer that was given has stuck with me to this day. "What kind of Go d would he be if I knew everything about him" So really when my Doubt begins to Overtake my Faith I remember "His ways are not my ways and his thoughts are higher then my thoughts". And finally I remember way back in my early teens and again in my mid 20s when I decided this is what I believe and I will believe it forever. I asked Jesus in my own words "Lord if this is you bid me come" And by now everyone knows the answer he gave me "COME".
Well I was thinking about that story and the times in peoples lives where they are at a crossroad in their lives. Maybe its a place of decision where they are not sure which way to go. Then after alot of thought, prayer, consideration or talking to people they figure out which way to go or which road to take. Just before they begin to take the road they have chosen they ask for one more sign "Lord if its you bid me come" And they are certain they hear the word COME. So alot of times in life when we make first make those decisions they are sure its the right way to go and we get part way down that road or couple months or even a year later we start to doubt ourselves. Was this really the right thing for me to do? Is this really the job I was supposed to Pick? Is this the spouse I am supposed to be with? And those doubts just creep in ever so slightly even though things might still be going ok. All of sudden in many cases I find that people over a period of time begin to doubt those decisions they have made. Its at this point I realize in my life I need to remember the steps I took or someone took before making the decision in the first place. I need to remember asking the question "Lord if its you Bid me come" and the people I talked to, the careful consideration I undertook. And most of all I need to Remember the answer that we heard "COME".
Even those times I doubt the decisions I've made and begin to backtrack or doubt the reason I made them in the first place The Lord is there reaching saying "Oh yee of little faith, Why did you doubt?"
I look at my friend dying in the hospital and events like that when the prayers doesnt look like its going to be answered the way I want can really make someone question their faith and beliefs. I think to myself this person has 3 young kids and I cant for the life of me understand why the Lord doesnt heal her because in my heart of hearts I know he can. But then as I begin to maybe have questions (which are ok to have and doubts which are ok to have) I hear the voice saying COME. I am reminded of the verse that says. "His ways are higher then my ways, his thoughts are not my thoughts" meaning I m not meant to understand everything that happens in life. But what it all comes down to is this, Do I still believe? Do I still trust? Is the Bible still True, Is God still at work.? And When I examine myself the answer way down deep is an absolute YES. I have seen to much, experienced to much been changed to much to doubt now. I remember in a course I was taking once someone asked a question about why we can't understand certain things about God meaning things that happen or don't happen etc. And The answer that was given has stuck with me to this day. "What kind of Go d would he be if I knew everything about him" So really when my Doubt begins to Overtake my Faith I remember "His ways are not my ways and his thoughts are higher then my thoughts". And finally I remember way back in my early teens and again in my mid 20s when I decided this is what I believe and I will believe it forever. I asked Jesus in my own words "Lord if this is you bid me come" And by now everyone knows the answer he gave me "COME".
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Since Sunday
Well since my last post I was sick on Sunday and Monday. Also since my last post the city and province went and is still recovering from a huge December flood. I have never saw anything like that in the middle of December in my life. Water was so high it looked like the springtime flood here in Freddy and elsewhere.
So what else is new? I spent sometime last night with a girl I recently met. It was nice to spend time with her and hopefully something further develops there. She had me watch The Big Bang Theory with her and I suprisingly enjoyed it. Then we just hung out some at her place and I came home. Like I said hopefully see her this weekend.
Other then that not a whole lot new at this point in time. I am just starting a 3 day stretch of work now until the weekend. My brother and sister in law and nephew are in Florida hopefully enjoying their time away.
Well my friend is still hanging on in her battle with cancer. Everyones prayers are much appreciated as I feel this isnt going to end well but like I said miracles happen everyday.
Tomorrow I dont have any plans besides coming to work and going to home. I imagine I will talk to my lady friend at some point. She is a very busy gal with her work as its a job that requires alot of work but I am sure she excels at it.
Well break time here for me at work so I guess I will end this entry. Hope everyone stays dry and has fun.
Peace
So what else is new? I spent sometime last night with a girl I recently met. It was nice to spend time with her and hopefully something further develops there. She had me watch The Big Bang Theory with her and I suprisingly enjoyed it. Then we just hung out some at her place and I came home. Like I said hopefully see her this weekend.
Other then that not a whole lot new at this point in time. I am just starting a 3 day stretch of work now until the weekend. My brother and sister in law and nephew are in Florida hopefully enjoying their time away.
Well my friend is still hanging on in her battle with cancer. Everyones prayers are much appreciated as I feel this isnt going to end well but like I said miracles happen everyday.
Tomorrow I dont have any plans besides coming to work and going to home. I imagine I will talk to my lady friend at some point. She is a very busy gal with her work as its a job that requires alot of work but I am sure she excels at it.
Well break time here for me at work so I guess I will end this entry. Hope everyone stays dry and has fun.
Peace
Sunday, December 12, 2010
Sick today
I was home after church relaxing before work and I realized I wasnt feeling well. I still came to work however and that was a mistake. I fell asleep twice at my desk and also upstairs on my lunchbreak.
I want to go home and just curl up and go to sleep.
Church was good this morning as we had The Lapointes there singing some Christmas songs. People who know them or heard them know they are fantastic.
Anyways Im not feeling well so I am ending this blog
I want to go home and just curl up and go to sleep.
Church was good this morning as we had The Lapointes there singing some Christmas songs. People who know them or heard them know they are fantastic.
Anyways Im not feeling well so I am ending this blog
Saturday, December 11, 2010
Sad couple of days
Boy if I needed a reminder on how fragile we as humans can be and how quickly our life can change I received that this week.
A good friend who is like a sister to me and her family is like my family was diagnosed with Leukemia about April of this year. This came as quite a shock as she was a healthy 33 year old woman with 3 beautiful young boys. So she went through the Chemo and it was determined that she needed a bone marrow transplant. Her brother flew home from out west and the transplant was done and deemed a success. However when the Doctors began giving her the anti rejection drugs the trouble began.
The anti rejection drugs caused liaisons on her brain which have now caused her liver and kidneys to stop working.She was in Halifax for 2 months and 2 weeks ago got sent to Saint John hospital as the docs said nothing more can be done for her. My mother and I went down on Weds and went to the hosp on Thursday to see her and I wouldnt have recongized her if I didnt know who it was. The jaundice has set in and and she cant speak and so skinny
. Without the miracle of her liver and kidneys starting to work again I dont see this ending well. However I serve a God who can heal sickness, is bigger then cancer and still performs miracles.
So if all my blogger friends could say a prayer for her I would much appreciate it as Im sure the family would to.
Lets all remember to appreciate life and each day as it can quickly be taken from us.
A good friend who is like a sister to me and her family is like my family was diagnosed with Leukemia about April of this year. This came as quite a shock as she was a healthy 33 year old woman with 3 beautiful young boys. So she went through the Chemo and it was determined that she needed a bone marrow transplant. Her brother flew home from out west and the transplant was done and deemed a success. However when the Doctors began giving her the anti rejection drugs the trouble began.
The anti rejection drugs caused liaisons on her brain which have now caused her liver and kidneys to stop working.She was in Halifax for 2 months and 2 weeks ago got sent to Saint John hospital as the docs said nothing more can be done for her. My mother and I went down on Weds and went to the hosp on Thursday to see her and I wouldnt have recongized her if I didnt know who it was. The jaundice has set in and and she cant speak and so skinny
. Without the miracle of her liver and kidneys starting to work again I dont see this ending well. However I serve a God who can heal sickness, is bigger then cancer and still performs miracles.
So if all my blogger friends could say a prayer for her I would much appreciate it as Im sure the family would to.
Lets all remember to appreciate life and each day as it can quickly be taken from us.
Monday, December 6, 2010
Back to work in the snow lol
So Today I was in Saint John visiting my father and his wife for a day or so before coming back to work today. While when I woke up this am my father told my all the schools up here were closed for the day due to the storm so we should leave early to get me here in time for work. Now in SJ this am it was just raining so I was curious as to how bad it was in Freddy Beach.
Turns out the 25cm of snow they were expecting is more like 2 cm with lots of rain lol. The school boards will have egg on their faces again lol.
Well I am back to work after the weekend off. Saturday I took it easy and then in the evening went out to play poker with some friends. I ended up splitting the 2nd game so left with 20 more dollars then I went with
So that was always a fun evening other then the Maple leafs beating my Bruins.
Sunday I went to Church in the morning then I went to my Dads. We then went to my grandmothers christmas choir cantata which I really enjoyed. I am not surprised as I like music anyways.
Then Today I came back to work. Now I am just working the night away. I work tomorrow then am off for 3 days. Going to visit my grandparents and see how they are these days.
Anyways I am not to motivated to blog on any certain topic so figured I would just update on my weekend
peace
Turns out the 25cm of snow they were expecting is more like 2 cm with lots of rain lol. The school boards will have egg on their faces again lol.
Well I am back to work after the weekend off. Saturday I took it easy and then in the evening went out to play poker with some friends. I ended up splitting the 2nd game so left with 20 more dollars then I went with
So that was always a fun evening other then the Maple leafs beating my Bruins.
Sunday I went to Church in the morning then I went to my Dads. We then went to my grandmothers christmas choir cantata which I really enjoyed. I am not surprised as I like music anyways.
Then Today I came back to work. Now I am just working the night away. I work tomorrow then am off for 3 days. Going to visit my grandparents and see how they are these days.
Anyways I am not to motivated to blog on any certain topic so figured I would just update on my weekend
peace
Thursday, December 2, 2010
A random Post on Random Things
Woken up this morning by Dumb and Dumber ( my name for the two cats) wrestling and running around the Apt. Those two are going to have to learn I want to sleep when I get home at 2AM and dont want to play in the morning.
Today I didnt do much . Rested watched TV and now I am here at work slowly passing the time. It was just busy earlier with billing stuff but now its quieted down. I work tomorrow then off for the weekend. YAY
Prob go hang with some friends Sat night then will go to my dads for a day or so.
Im tired now so this blog is over Peace
Today I didnt do much . Rested watched TV and now I am here at work slowly passing the time. It was just busy earlier with billing stuff but now its quieted down. I work tomorrow then off for the weekend. YAY
Prob go hang with some friends Sat night then will go to my dads for a day or so.
Im tired now so this blog is over Peace
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Two cats better then one?
You know the old saying two is better then one? Well I used to think it was true in most cases. I have however decided that two cats is not better then one lol. We recently got my brothers cat as he is going away to Florida and we are keeping his cat. We allready have a cat who was quite content being queen of the house. Well the first night I was trying to sleep in the living room and all I heard all night was hissing and running and meowing. My two cats decided to proceed to keep me up all night with their getting to know each other actions.
It has now been about 3 days and they seem to be getting along quite ok until this am when they decided to fight with each other for the morning. I tend to think they were just playing but it looked to be escalating so the Water bottle fixed that lol. They did however last night spend time sleeping beside each other on the same couch so I am sure they will get along in the next days.
Other then that not much to write about. had a day off yesterday and didnt do much and then today I cleaned out apartment storage area. That was about an hours work. I also climbed in a dumpster but that was for another blog
It has now been about 3 days and they seem to be getting along quite ok until this am when they decided to fight with each other for the morning. I tend to think they were just playing but it looked to be escalating so the Water bottle fixed that lol. They did however last night spend time sleeping beside each other on the same couch so I am sure they will get along in the next days.
Other then that not much to write about. had a day off yesterday and didnt do much and then today I cleaned out apartment storage area. That was about an hours work. I also climbed in a dumpster but that was for another blog
Saturday, November 27, 2010
My Old Dog
I was just reading a post on a forum that I am a part of about this guy whos dog had cancer and he was trying to win enough money in poker to pay for her surgery. In his case the dog did get the leg amputation needed and he was given a special price. Sadly a few months later the dog passed away.
While reading this I started thinking of when I was in grade 1 and my parents brought home this mutt and said it was our new dog. We named it Lucky and until the year 2004 I had that dog. It was definately my moms dog however. I can remember playing with in, riding in the car, walking it, laying in bed with it and all the other fun stuff people do with their dog.
When my father left in 2001 that Dog was my mom's lifeline. Whenever she was sad or crying that dog would be right their offering companionship and unconditional love. The dog always new when to comfort her and go lay beside her or put the head on her lap.
By the time 2003 came we could tell she was starting to get sick and not walking as well. We could feel the lumps inside her. Late 2004 it got to the point where she could barely walk up the stairs or make it outside.
The last few weeks in early 05 we could see her stop eating and continuing to struggle to walk and get outside. We then talked as a family and decided it was time to end her suffering. I called the vet and me and my gf took the dog to the vet. Watching my mom say goodbye to the dog and begin to cry as she told the dog how much she loved it and would miss it.
When I went to put Lucky in the vehicle she could barely get in I had to lift her up to get her in. Reminds me when she was healthy she would just run to get in the car to go for a ride lol. Well when I got to the vet and took her in to the vet he asked if i wanted the collar which I said I did. He then stuck the needle in and that was it. She was so sick it only took bout 5 seconds.
I never realized until writing this how much I miss the dog lol. I think I will need to get another one
While reading this I started thinking of when I was in grade 1 and my parents brought home this mutt and said it was our new dog. We named it Lucky and until the year 2004 I had that dog. It was definately my moms dog however. I can remember playing with in, riding in the car, walking it, laying in bed with it and all the other fun stuff people do with their dog.
When my father left in 2001 that Dog was my mom's lifeline. Whenever she was sad or crying that dog would be right their offering companionship and unconditional love. The dog always new when to comfort her and go lay beside her or put the head on her lap.
By the time 2003 came we could tell she was starting to get sick and not walking as well. We could feel the lumps inside her. Late 2004 it got to the point where she could barely walk up the stairs or make it outside.
The last few weeks in early 05 we could see her stop eating and continuing to struggle to walk and get outside. We then talked as a family and decided it was time to end her suffering. I called the vet and me and my gf took the dog to the vet. Watching my mom say goodbye to the dog and begin to cry as she told the dog how much she loved it and would miss it.
When I went to put Lucky in the vehicle she could barely get in I had to lift her up to get her in. Reminds me when she was healthy she would just run to get in the car to go for a ride lol. Well when I got to the vet and took her in to the vet he asked if i wanted the collar which I said I did. He then stuck the needle in and that was it. She was so sick it only took bout 5 seconds.
I never realized until writing this how much I miss the dog lol. I think I will need to get another one
Monday, November 22, 2010
I am a dancing machine
So this weekend was the Xplornet Christmas Party. My buddy picked me up around 520 or so and we made a quick stop to pick up some supplies then headed to the delta hotel for the evening festivities. We first went up to one of our buds rooms and had a couple of "pops" then headed to the lobby to meet and greet our friends and fellow co workers before going into sit down for dinner. After dinner I got my pic taken with a great gal so I'm sure it will turn out fine.
The Dinner was tremendous a buffet of alot of different foods. I was definitely full after eating. So then there was some boring speeches and then people got their 5 year awards and such. This was cool as a couple of people I know got their 5 year plaques. They also did some door prizes including a laptop and a TV.
Sadly I didnt win anything.
After that we sat around and socialized some more and had couple more beverages. After a while some friends decided to get up and finally start dancing. I barely sat down for the next 3 hours. It was great fun and I got to dance with some great people who I wont name but they know who they are. We all danced and had lots of fun and laughs.
After the dance some people decided to go out to the club but I stayed back in the hotel with a lady who was not feeling well. That was fun as we sat and talked and laughed until Her roomate and friend came back from being out. All in all it was a great evening and a fun night that I am glad I went. I have some great co workers who I greatly enjoy spending time with and hope to spend more time in the future.
The Dinner was tremendous a buffet of alot of different foods. I was definitely full after eating. So then there was some boring speeches and then people got their 5 year awards and such. This was cool as a couple of people I know got their 5 year plaques. They also did some door prizes including a laptop and a TV.
Sadly I didnt win anything.
After that we sat around and socialized some more and had couple more beverages. After a while some friends decided to get up and finally start dancing. I barely sat down for the next 3 hours. It was great fun and I got to dance with some great people who I wont name but they know who they are. We all danced and had lots of fun and laughs.
After the dance some people decided to go out to the club but I stayed back in the hotel with a lady who was not feeling well. That was fun as we sat and talked and laughed until Her roomate and friend came back from being out. All in all it was a great evening and a fun night that I am glad I went. I have some great co workers who I greatly enjoy spending time with and hope to spend more time in the future.
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
A Serious Post For a Change
I decided to write today on a topic that I believe does not get enough attention in today's society and that is the subject of Teen Sucide.
Someone reading this may not understand why I am writing this but I have been reading the story of the 14 year old daughter of former NHL Defenceman Luke Richardson. Just last week this young beautiful girl was so filled with pain and sorrow that she felt she had to take her own life rather then live another day with the hurt she was feeling. I can not imagine the pain her parents and friends must be going through at this time. All the wondering if they could have done something or was there a sign they missed. The self blame is something that will go on for years or maybe the rest of their lives.
I ask in this blog for any teenager or young person out there who may be feeling like this to please talk to someone. A friend or family member or someone else that you trust. Young people you have your whole lives ahead of you. Whatever pain or sadness you are going through at this moment doesnt last. It Goes away. The sun continues to rise in the morning. Please do not think that you are going through something so bad that you can not go on.
Adults when a teenager or young person comes and wants to talk about how they feel or issues in their life take the time to listen and to show them that you care. That moment or few minutes might seem unimportant to us but to a young person who is hurting and thinking of ending their live it can be a life changing few minutes.
Lets all try and not be so self involved to miss the hurting and confused people in society today. A few minutes of attention and compassion can save someones life.
This story is an example of how one important statement can potentially change a life
"He's one of those stupid idiots from over at the Children's Orphanage Home," said one of the boy's from my seventh grade class.
I looked him straight in the eye and he turned his back on me. The other boys and girls, grouped around him, looked away as if I were not even there.
I had hoped that my attending a new school, located five miles from the orphanage, would give me a new start on life. It would be a welcome break from all the jokes, and never-ending ridicule, which we kids suffered for years while attending to Spring Park Elementary School. A school located next door to the orphanage where I lived.
It took less than a day, or two for the word to spread around the classroom that I was from the orphanage. My living in an orphanage home somehow made me different from all the other kids. I could not tell much of a difference myself. However, for some reason it sure made a big difference to all the other kids in the classroom.
For the first week of Junior High School, no one, other than my teachers, even spoke to me. I sat in my assigned seat just hoping that someone, anyone, would smile or speak to me. I opened up my notebook and I took out a piece of paper. On the paper, I drew a heart. Inside the heart, I wrote the words "Roger, you are a piece of shit."
I folded up the notebook paper and I walked to the front of the classroom. I walked up to the teacher and handed her the note. She opened the paper and began to read the contents. Then she looked up at me and tightened up her jaw muscles.
"You head straight to the Dean's Office young man," she said, pushing on my shoulder to spin me around to face the door.
I'M A PIECE OF S#&T," I screamed aloud, as I ran out at the classroom.
I turned and I ran out of the classroom. Down the long hallway, I sped to the double doors leading outside the large brick building. I continued to run until I could run no more. Slowly I made my way to the St. John's River and then over to the Main Street Bridge leading back to where the orphanage was located. I stopped when I reached the center of the bridge. I looked over the metal railings and I looked down at the water below.
"That's a long ways to fall down " I said to myself, in a broken voice.
I just stood there looking down at the moving water below. I placed my head down onto my arms and I just stood there trying to decide what to do. My mind was racing ninety miles per hour. I knew that I could not go back to the orphanage because I had left the school grounds. As usual, they would beat the pure living crap out of me. There was no way that I could return to school and face my classmates or the Dean of Boys.
"I'm too scared to jump all that way," I mumbled, as slobber fell from my mouth.
"You have no choice. You’re in bad trouble," my mind kept telling me.
"You don't have to jump. Just put one foot up onto the railing," said something inside my head.
Carefully I raised my foot and I placed it onto the metal railing. Then I raised my other foot up off the concrete walkway.
"See that didn't hurt anything," said the voice.
"Yea, I don't really have to jump if I don't want to?" I said aloud.
"You don't have to jump if you don't really want to," the small voice inside my head.
Each time that I would take another step, I felt much better inside. The pain and the sadness were disappearing a little bit at a time. Soon I was half way up the silver steel railing. Now the passing cars were starting to honk their horns at me. One of the cars came to a complete stop. A man rolled down his window and he yelled at me to get down off the railing.
I looked over at him and I thought to myself "That man must care a lot about me to honk at me like that".
"Do you like me?" I asked him.
"I like you son. Come down off that railing," he told me.
Slowly I climbed down off the railings and back down onto the concrete walkway below.
I have always heard that people who commit suicide really do not want to die. All that they really want is for the pain to stop. I have never heard a truer statement in all of my life.
Someone reading this may not understand why I am writing this but I have been reading the story of the 14 year old daughter of former NHL Defenceman Luke Richardson. Just last week this young beautiful girl was so filled with pain and sorrow that she felt she had to take her own life rather then live another day with the hurt she was feeling. I can not imagine the pain her parents and friends must be going through at this time. All the wondering if they could have done something or was there a sign they missed. The self blame is something that will go on for years or maybe the rest of their lives.
I ask in this blog for any teenager or young person out there who may be feeling like this to please talk to someone. A friend or family member or someone else that you trust. Young people you have your whole lives ahead of you. Whatever pain or sadness you are going through at this moment doesnt last. It Goes away. The sun continues to rise in the morning. Please do not think that you are going through something so bad that you can not go on.
Adults when a teenager or young person comes and wants to talk about how they feel or issues in their life take the time to listen and to show them that you care. That moment or few minutes might seem unimportant to us but to a young person who is hurting and thinking of ending their live it can be a life changing few minutes.
Lets all try and not be so self involved to miss the hurting and confused people in society today. A few minutes of attention and compassion can save someones life.
This story is an example of how one important statement can potentially change a life
"He's one of those stupid idiots from over at the Children's Orphanage Home," said one of the boy's from my seventh grade class.
I looked him straight in the eye and he turned his back on me. The other boys and girls, grouped around him, looked away as if I were not even there.
I had hoped that my attending a new school, located five miles from the orphanage, would give me a new start on life. It would be a welcome break from all the jokes, and never-ending ridicule, which we kids suffered for years while attending to Spring Park Elementary School. A school located next door to the orphanage where I lived.
It took less than a day, or two for the word to spread around the classroom that I was from the orphanage. My living in an orphanage home somehow made me different from all the other kids. I could not tell much of a difference myself. However, for some reason it sure made a big difference to all the other kids in the classroom.
For the first week of Junior High School, no one, other than my teachers, even spoke to me. I sat in my assigned seat just hoping that someone, anyone, would smile or speak to me. I opened up my notebook and I took out a piece of paper. On the paper, I drew a heart. Inside the heart, I wrote the words "Roger, you are a piece of shit."
I folded up the notebook paper and I walked to the front of the classroom. I walked up to the teacher and handed her the note. She opened the paper and began to read the contents. Then she looked up at me and tightened up her jaw muscles.
"You head straight to the Dean's Office young man," she said, pushing on my shoulder to spin me around to face the door.
I'M A PIECE OF S#&T," I screamed aloud, as I ran out at the classroom.
I turned and I ran out of the classroom. Down the long hallway, I sped to the double doors leading outside the large brick building. I continued to run until I could run no more. Slowly I made my way to the St. John's River and then over to the Main Street Bridge leading back to where the orphanage was located. I stopped when I reached the center of the bridge. I looked over the metal railings and I looked down at the water below.
"That's a long ways to fall down " I said to myself, in a broken voice.
I just stood there looking down at the moving water below. I placed my head down onto my arms and I just stood there trying to decide what to do. My mind was racing ninety miles per hour. I knew that I could not go back to the orphanage because I had left the school grounds. As usual, they would beat the pure living crap out of me. There was no way that I could return to school and face my classmates or the Dean of Boys.
"I'm too scared to jump all that way," I mumbled, as slobber fell from my mouth.
"You have no choice. You’re in bad trouble," my mind kept telling me.
"You don't have to jump. Just put one foot up onto the railing," said something inside my head.
Carefully I raised my foot and I placed it onto the metal railing. Then I raised my other foot up off the concrete walkway.
"See that didn't hurt anything," said the voice.
"Yea, I don't really have to jump if I don't want to?" I said aloud.
"You don't have to jump if you don't really want to," the small voice inside my head.
Each time that I would take another step, I felt much better inside. The pain and the sadness were disappearing a little bit at a time. Soon I was half way up the silver steel railing. Now the passing cars were starting to honk their horns at me. One of the cars came to a complete stop. A man rolled down his window and he yelled at me to get down off the railing.
I looked over at him and I thought to myself "That man must care a lot about me to honk at me like that".
"Do you like me?" I asked him.
"I like you son. Come down off that railing," he told me.
Slowly I climbed down off the railings and back down onto the concrete walkway below.
I have always heard that people who commit suicide really do not want to die. All that they really want is for the pain to stop. I have never heard a truer statement in all of my life.
Monday, November 15, 2010
Another Day Another Dollar
So last night at work it was exceptionally busy. I was wondering why so busy when there was no outages or issues out there. Apparently we discovered it was because there were only 4 csrs on last night. So from when I got to work around 3 until I left at 2pm the calls never stopped. It was needless to say a long day.
Also yesterday I created a challenge for myself. For those that know me know I like to play poker online. Well right now all I had on there was 5.50$ I decided to see if can turn that into 500$ by the end of the year without playing any tournaments just by playing cash games. I keep track of my results and post them in a form I am a part of. Well Last night being the first night for it I played 253 hands and ended up with 7.65$ So a positive start which is good. As for the little amount being won Thats why its called grinding. It takes time effort and skill to make money at this. You cant do it all at once.
So a few months ago our trainer here at xnet was let go along with some other people. Tomorrow we are all going out to lunch together so that should be fun. I will prob then get some groceries and also probably get a hair cut since I havent gotten one since before I came home from the North.
Other then that I think I will just enjoy my day off tomorrow. I feel the weather outside here in NB slowly starting to turn into winter. The work Christmas party is this weekend so that should be fun. I remember the last time I went the food was delicious and a fun time was had by all.
Not much else to write about for now I guess just getting ready to head back on the phones
Peace
Also yesterday I created a challenge for myself. For those that know me know I like to play poker online. Well right now all I had on there was 5.50$ I decided to see if can turn that into 500$ by the end of the year without playing any tournaments just by playing cash games. I keep track of my results and post them in a form I am a part of. Well Last night being the first night for it I played 253 hands and ended up with 7.65$ So a positive start which is good. As for the little amount being won Thats why its called grinding. It takes time effort and skill to make money at this. You cant do it all at once.
So a few months ago our trainer here at xnet was let go along with some other people. Tomorrow we are all going out to lunch together so that should be fun. I will prob then get some groceries and also probably get a hair cut since I havent gotten one since before I came home from the North.
Other then that I think I will just enjoy my day off tomorrow. I feel the weather outside here in NB slowly starting to turn into winter. The work Christmas party is this weekend so that should be fun. I remember the last time I went the food was delicious and a fun time was had by all.
Not much else to write about for now I guess just getting ready to head back on the phones
Peace
Saturday, November 13, 2010
Back to The Grind of Life
Well after 3 days of doing not much, Here I am at work once again grinding the night away helping people with their computers.
I am a little perplexed and frustrated with my supervisor lately. I just looked back at the last 4 calls of mine that he has monitored and scored 100%, 99% 98% and 95%. Yet he is still bothering me because he says my handle time is to low. I average about 8 minutes per call including my notes and he wants this to be around 10 minutes. He is constantly bothering me about this. I am about to tell him not to worry about it and listen to my calls if he thinks I am rushing the cxs. AHHH sometimes I feel like cursing lol.
Other then that on my three days off I didnt do much. Got in alot of sleep. Weds night I went to our churchs weekly concert of prayer which is a great time. Thurs night I went to my friends who invited us over to watch The Boston Bruins play the Montreal Canadiens. Sadly the Canadiens won. And last night I just stayed in and didnt do to much.
Now I am working and catching up on some of the blogs I missed over last couple days,. Tomorrow I think I will sleep in and then come to work again. Next weekend is the Xplornet Christmas Party so that should be a good time. I think the last time I went was a super fun time of food and socializing.
Anyways I should do some more work so Peace and I hope you all have a super weekend
I am a little perplexed and frustrated with my supervisor lately. I just looked back at the last 4 calls of mine that he has monitored and scored 100%, 99% 98% and 95%. Yet he is still bothering me because he says my handle time is to low. I average about 8 minutes per call including my notes and he wants this to be around 10 minutes. He is constantly bothering me about this. I am about to tell him not to worry about it and listen to my calls if he thinks I am rushing the cxs. AHHH sometimes I feel like cursing lol.
Other then that on my three days off I didnt do much. Got in alot of sleep. Weds night I went to our churchs weekly concert of prayer which is a great time. Thurs night I went to my friends who invited us over to watch The Boston Bruins play the Montreal Canadiens. Sadly the Canadiens won. And last night I just stayed in and didnt do to much.
Now I am working and catching up on some of the blogs I missed over last couple days,. Tomorrow I think I will sleep in and then come to work again. Next weekend is the Xplornet Christmas Party so that should be a good time. I think the last time I went was a super fun time of food and socializing.
Anyways I should do some more work so Peace and I hope you all have a super weekend
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
I wish You Enough
Recently I overheard a Father and daughter in their last moments together at the airport. They had announced the departure.
Standing near the security gate, they hugged and the Father said, 'I love you, and I wish you enough.'
The daughter replied, 'Dad, our life together has been more than enough. Your love is all I ever needed. I wish you enough, too, Dad.'
They kissed and the daughter left. The Father walked over to the window where I was seated. Standing there I could see he wanted and needed to cry. I tried not to intrude on his privacy, but he welcomed me in by asking, 'Did you ever say good-bye to someone knowing it would be forever?'
'Yes, I have,' I replied. 'Forgive me for asking, but why is this a forever good-bye?'..
'I am old, and she lives so far away. I have challenges ahead and the reality is - the next trip back will be for my funeral,' he said.
'When you were saying good-bye, I heard you say, 'I wish you enough.' May I ask what that means?'
He began to smile. 'That's a wish that has been handed down from other generations. My parents used to say it to everyone...' He paused a moment and looked up as if trying to remember it in detail, and he smiled even more. 'When we said, 'I wish you enough,' we were wanting the other person to have a life filled with just enough good things to sustain them..' Then turning toward me, he shared the following as if he were reciting it from memory.
They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them; but then an entire life to forget them.
* Only if you wish, send this to the people you will never forget and remember to send it back to the person who sent it to you. If you don't send it to anyone it may mean that you are in such a hurry that you have forgotten your friends.
TAKE TIME TO LIVE....
To all my friends and loved ones, I WISH YOU ENOUGH.
Standing near the security gate, they hugged and the Father said, 'I love you, and I wish you enough.'
The daughter replied, 'Dad, our life together has been more than enough. Your love is all I ever needed. I wish you enough, too, Dad.'
They kissed and the daughter left. The Father walked over to the window where I was seated. Standing there I could see he wanted and needed to cry. I tried not to intrude on his privacy, but he welcomed me in by asking, 'Did you ever say good-bye to someone knowing it would be forever?'
'Yes, I have,' I replied. 'Forgive me for asking, but why is this a forever good-bye?'..
'I am old, and she lives so far away. I have challenges ahead and the reality is - the next trip back will be for my funeral,' he said.
'When you were saying good-bye, I heard you say, 'I wish you enough.' May I ask what that means?'
He began to smile. 'That's a wish that has been handed down from other generations. My parents used to say it to everyone...' He paused a moment and looked up as if trying to remember it in detail, and he smiled even more. 'When we said, 'I wish you enough,' we were wanting the other person to have a life filled with just enough good things to sustain them..' Then turning toward me, he shared the following as if he were reciting it from memory.
- I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright no matter how gray the day may appear.
- I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun even more.
- I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive and everlasting.
- I wish you enough pain so that even the smallest of joys in life may appear bigger.
- I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.
- I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.
- I wish you enough hellos to get you through the final good-bye.
They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them; but then an entire life to forget them.
* Only if you wish, send this to the people you will never forget and remember to send it back to the person who sent it to you. If you don't send it to anyone it may mean that you are in such a hurry that you have forgotten your friends.
TAKE TIME TO LIVE....
To all my friends and loved ones, I WISH YOU ENOUGH.
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
To stay Or Cut Bait and Run
I have been reading with much interest the news recently that Prime Minister Harper has been thinking about the idea of leaving some troops in Afghanistan past the 2011 deadline that was made to pull the troops out and bring them home. Now for those of you who do not know I am a proud supporter of the Canadian Military. I respect them and honour them for the work they do in keeping us free and for the sacrifices they and their families make.\
My personal opinion before this news became public was that I didn't think we should leave their until the work is done. I thought if we leave early it is just giving control back to the Taliban. I know the media likes to report about the lack of progress over there and how the effort isn't making a difference but I tend to take the reports with a grain of salt. After talking with MANY people who have been there and seen the truth on the ground you can tell that the mainstream media in this country will not report on the positive progress being made such as the schools built for children and the freedom for the women and children.
If people would take the time to talk to the men and women over there then would be able to have a better understanding of what is really going on and the difference we as Canadians are making over there. I think this is the real reason we need to be there. So that the Afghan civilians will never again have to live under the threat and repression of the extremist Taliban Regime.
One of the things that really bothers me is when people form uneducated opinions without taking the time to research come to a reasonable conclusion. Our troops are doing the work of heroes and deserve be commended for the job they do. The mission needs to be completed. If we cut and run now I believe Nations will never again be sure that we will be there for them again in their hour of need. We Need to stay until the job is done until the Afghans can protect themselves and take care of their security.
This same reasoning allowed the Americans to finally leave Iraq after a number of years and countless deaths. They stayed until the Iraqis can defend and look after their own country.
Anyways that is my opinion based on reading and numerous discussions I have had with people who have gone to Afghanistan worked on the ground and saw the real difference we are making in the lives of ordinary Afghan civilians.
My personal opinion before this news became public was that I didn't think we should leave their until the work is done. I thought if we leave early it is just giving control back to the Taliban. I know the media likes to report about the lack of progress over there and how the effort isn't making a difference but I tend to take the reports with a grain of salt. After talking with MANY people who have been there and seen the truth on the ground you can tell that the mainstream media in this country will not report on the positive progress being made such as the schools built for children and the freedom for the women and children.
If people would take the time to talk to the men and women over there then would be able to have a better understanding of what is really going on and the difference we as Canadians are making over there. I think this is the real reason we need to be there. So that the Afghan civilians will never again have to live under the threat and repression of the extremist Taliban Regime.
One of the things that really bothers me is when people form uneducated opinions without taking the time to research come to a reasonable conclusion. Our troops are doing the work of heroes and deserve be commended for the job they do. The mission needs to be completed. If we cut and run now I believe Nations will never again be sure that we will be there for them again in their hour of need. We Need to stay until the job is done until the Afghans can protect themselves and take care of their security.
This same reasoning allowed the Americans to finally leave Iraq after a number of years and countless deaths. They stayed until the Iraqis can defend and look after their own country.
Anyways that is my opinion based on reading and numerous discussions I have had with people who have gone to Afghanistan worked on the ground and saw the real difference we are making in the lives of ordinary Afghan civilians.
Monday, November 8, 2010
Tired out
I dont know why as I have slept plenty over past 3 days but I feel exhausted tonight. I think my sleep pattern is all screwed up working until 2am.
I did not do much this weekend as Saturday I slept and then Sunday my good friend came up for the day.
I am here at work right now and all I can think about is sleep.
This is a short post as I am not mentally with it enough to write along one today. Hope you all had a great day and peace out
I did not do much this weekend as Saturday I slept and then Sunday my good friend came up for the day.
I am here at work right now and all I can think about is sleep.
This is a short post as I am not mentally with it enough to write along one today. Hope you all had a great day and peace out
Friday, November 5, 2010
3 Years Ago Today
Many people that read this blog know that I once lived in the Northern Town of Kimmirut, Nunavut, while working for the Northwest Company there. While living there I met some great people and had a lot of fun as well. However 3 years ago today was not one of those days.
About a week after I moved there in Aug/07 I was at work and this young guy comes in looking to be about my age. I noticed he looked as if he was from Southern Canada like myself so thought he must be a teacher here to teach this year. I remember talking to him and being surprised that he was a cop. I remember thinking he looks to young to be a cop
Well from that day on when I saw him coming into the store we would talk or when we would pass each other on the street which was often we would stop and shoot the breeze. It turns out that we both liked to play cards as well so every week we would gather with some of the teachers in town to play poker on Friday nights. This was an event we did every week as much for social time then playing cards. We would eat and laugh while enjoying each others company.
During this time I had discussed with Doug the fact that i was interested in becoming a police officer as well. He was a great help in this area. He gave me his preparation book to help me know what was coming next in the process. We also decided to that it would be a good idea if I was in shape in order to take the physical exam as well so we began jogging around the town and doing sprints and other stuff. Now for Doug this was easy but it was killing me lol. I'm sure part of the fun for him was watching me trying to keep up. Usally after this we would go to his house and cool down and talk about whatever normal guys talk about. Sports, girls, work etc
The Afternoon of the 5th of November 2007 I had stopped in at the police station to get some paperwork that he had for me. We chatted for half hour or so then I had to get back to work So I said I would see him later. Little did I know it would be the last time I saw him.
The next morning I was kind of lying in bed slowly getting up for work when my phone rang and it was my boss on the phone. Now it wasn't all that unusual for her to call some mornings and advise she was going to be couple mins late as she would take her daughter to daycare of whatever. So I wasn't alarmed by the phone call. The First thing she asked me was had I heard about last night, I replied "no what happened? " She then proceeded to say words I never expected "Doug's Dead" I said "my dogs dead? what" She spoke again and said Dougs Dead. I then went "huh what are you talking about what do you mean?" She proceeded to tell me about the event of the previous night when Doug was shot and killed my a drunk driver. I remember being in shock as I called home distraught and sad. I remember the next day trying to work and having to leave as I couldn't think straight. I remember being asked by the health station nurse to walk his dog that same night and while doing that just crying while walking down the street.
I remember finally asking for some medication to help me sleep and then going to the school and watching the funeral on tv. I think about my friend often and the sacrifice that was made to keep others safe,. I missed him greatly and still do. I promised myself that I would never forget and so each year on this date I take the time to remember the fine young man that I got to know and was privileged enough to call a friend.
Thanks for taking the time to read this Its not something I like to think of often but I believe its important to remember our friends and those who have been lost
About a week after I moved there in Aug/07 I was at work and this young guy comes in looking to be about my age. I noticed he looked as if he was from Southern Canada like myself so thought he must be a teacher here to teach this year. I remember talking to him and being surprised that he was a cop. I remember thinking he looks to young to be a cop
Well from that day on when I saw him coming into the store we would talk or when we would pass each other on the street which was often we would stop and shoot the breeze. It turns out that we both liked to play cards as well so every week we would gather with some of the teachers in town to play poker on Friday nights. This was an event we did every week as much for social time then playing cards. We would eat and laugh while enjoying each others company.
During this time I had discussed with Doug the fact that i was interested in becoming a police officer as well. He was a great help in this area. He gave me his preparation book to help me know what was coming next in the process. We also decided to that it would be a good idea if I was in shape in order to take the physical exam as well so we began jogging around the town and doing sprints and other stuff. Now for Doug this was easy but it was killing me lol. I'm sure part of the fun for him was watching me trying to keep up. Usally after this we would go to his house and cool down and talk about whatever normal guys talk about. Sports, girls, work etc
The Afternoon of the 5th of November 2007 I had stopped in at the police station to get some paperwork that he had for me. We chatted for half hour or so then I had to get back to work So I said I would see him later. Little did I know it would be the last time I saw him.
The next morning I was kind of lying in bed slowly getting up for work when my phone rang and it was my boss on the phone. Now it wasn't all that unusual for her to call some mornings and advise she was going to be couple mins late as she would take her daughter to daycare of whatever. So I wasn't alarmed by the phone call. The First thing she asked me was had I heard about last night, I replied "no what happened? " She then proceeded to say words I never expected "Doug's Dead" I said "my dogs dead? what" She spoke again and said Dougs Dead. I then went "huh what are you talking about what do you mean?" She proceeded to tell me about the event of the previous night when Doug was shot and killed my a drunk driver. I remember being in shock as I called home distraught and sad. I remember the next day trying to work and having to leave as I couldn't think straight. I remember being asked by the health station nurse to walk his dog that same night and while doing that just crying while walking down the street.
I remember finally asking for some medication to help me sleep and then going to the school and watching the funeral on tv. I think about my friend often and the sacrifice that was made to keep others safe,. I missed him greatly and still do. I promised myself that I would never forget and so each year on this date I take the time to remember the fine young man that I got to know and was privileged enough to call a friend.
Thanks for taking the time to read this Its not something I like to think of often but I believe its important to remember our friends and those who have been lost
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
A Job or A Purpose
I ve had a few career choices thrown my way in the past couple of weeks. I have had 2 interviews for a retail management position, I have been told to apply for two jobs with the government of the NWT which I did today, I have been told also about the possibility of a job in the cruise ship industry as well as still working on joining the military.
This makes me happy to know I have lots of options out there to pursue should I choose. Out of all these options I think I would best like to work for the government of NWT. The jobs best suit my skills and one of them especially would be something I would excel at. Notice I havent mentioned the financial incentives lol.The money for the government job would be very good.
I really want to find a good paying job that I enjoy and excel at. Is it that hard for someone to do this. I read somewhere that 60% of people would take less money then they currently make to work at a job they enjoy. This tells me that too many people are caught on the merry go round of go to work get the paycheck and come home. This lack of enthusiasm at whatever the job is can also lead to lack of enthusiasm in life. I think a person whos happier in their job will naturally be happier in their life.
I try to be a happy go lucky person in whatever I do and can only imagine how much better I would feel working in a job I truly enjoyed. Maybe the reason I have switched jobs every so often is because I have yet to find the one I am truly designed to do.
I find myself at this stage of my life wondering if I ever will find out what it is I truly desire to do. I tend to think that most young people around my age have an idea or are doing whatever it is they desire to do. I evaluate where my life is at and see alot of my friends married, getting established in their careers, having kids lol and sometimes wonder what about me. Oh Well I m sure my time will come. For now I am reminded of a verse of a song I used to know as a teenager
If there are millions down on their knees, among the many can you still hear me? Here me asking where do I belong, Is there Vision that I can call my own.
Show me I'm looking for a reason, roaming through the night to find my place in this world, my place in this world, Not alot to lean on, I need your light to help me find my place in this world, my place in this world,
Sometimes I wish someone would just show me instead of me hopping from place to place to find that place where I will be content and happy and be willing to stay for the next 20 years or so. Again I believe everyone has a place to serve and it is just taking me longer to find mine I guess. The journey shall continue until I find that place.
This makes me happy to know I have lots of options out there to pursue should I choose. Out of all these options I think I would best like to work for the government of NWT. The jobs best suit my skills and one of them especially would be something I would excel at. Notice I havent mentioned the financial incentives lol.The money for the government job would be very good.
I really want to find a good paying job that I enjoy and excel at. Is it that hard for someone to do this. I read somewhere that 60% of people would take less money then they currently make to work at a job they enjoy. This tells me that too many people are caught on the merry go round of go to work get the paycheck and come home. This lack of enthusiasm at whatever the job is can also lead to lack of enthusiasm in life. I think a person whos happier in their job will naturally be happier in their life.
I try to be a happy go lucky person in whatever I do and can only imagine how much better I would feel working in a job I truly enjoyed. Maybe the reason I have switched jobs every so often is because I have yet to find the one I am truly designed to do.
I find myself at this stage of my life wondering if I ever will find out what it is I truly desire to do. I tend to think that most young people around my age have an idea or are doing whatever it is they desire to do. I evaluate where my life is at and see alot of my friends married, getting established in their careers, having kids lol and sometimes wonder what about me. Oh Well I m sure my time will come. For now I am reminded of a verse of a song I used to know as a teenager
If there are millions down on their knees, among the many can you still hear me? Here me asking where do I belong, Is there Vision that I can call my own.
Show me I'm looking for a reason, roaming through the night to find my place in this world, my place in this world, Not alot to lean on, I need your light to help me find my place in this world, my place in this world,
Sometimes I wish someone would just show me instead of me hopping from place to place to find that place where I will be content and happy and be willing to stay for the next 20 years or so. Again I believe everyone has a place to serve and it is just taking me longer to find mine I guess. The journey shall continue until I find that place.
Monday, November 1, 2010
Bonus Blog on Love I guess
So I was reading some other blogs of friends of mine and one of them was on the subject of love or such a thing. This got me thinking of love and my experiences with it. I looked around in my old emails and was able to find a old letter that I wrote once. i figured I am sensitive and vulnerable enough to share it with the blogging world
this is a letter i wrote at a vulnerable time in my life when I felt lonely and was regretting a decision that was made in my life.
The more I think about her the more love that I
feel,also the most regret. I regret the way it ended.
I regret the way I took her for granted or put my
needs and wants ahead of hers. Lately shes been on my
mind more and more as I ponder what life has in store
for me. The love I feel for her will never be felt by
someone else. No one compares to her. She is perfect
in my eyes though she would definitely disagree with
that. I think of her when I meet someone new,when I am
lonely,when I am sad and when I am happy.I don't know
why I thought being single at university was more
important or better then being with her. She was my
whole world and I still feel that part of me almost
three years later is still missing. Why cant I move
on? Am I supposed to. I met this shy but mysterious
girl and have watched her grow into a beautiful
compassion filled young woman. She taught me more
about myself then anyone I have ever met. She taught
me how to love, how to totally open myself up to
someone and let them see all of me. She taught me
responsibility and accountability. I knew if I needed
her or was having a bad day she would be there. She
has no idea how much she impacted my life. I'm still
realizing it even now. Every day I realize more and
more how lucky I was and how much I would give to have
it all back again. To start fresh and grow and blossom
into something spectacular.
this is a letter i wrote at a vulnerable time in my life when I felt lonely and was regretting a decision that was made in my life.
The more I think about her the more love that I
feel,also the most regret. I regret the way it ended.
I regret the way I took her for granted or put my
needs and wants ahead of hers. Lately shes been on my
mind more and more as I ponder what life has in store
for me. The love I feel for her will never be felt by
someone else. No one compares to her. She is perfect
in my eyes though she would definitely disagree with
that. I think of her when I meet someone new,when I am
lonely,when I am sad and when I am happy.I don't know
why I thought being single at university was more
important or better then being with her. She was my
whole world and I still feel that part of me almost
three years later is still missing. Why cant I move
on? Am I supposed to. I met this shy but mysterious
girl and have watched her grow into a beautiful
compassion filled young woman. She taught me more
about myself then anyone I have ever met. She taught
me how to love, how to totally open myself up to
someone and let them see all of me. She taught me
responsibility and accountability. I knew if I needed
her or was having a bad day she would be there. She
has no idea how much she impacted my life. I'm still
realizing it even now. Every day I realize more and
more how lucky I was and how much I would give to have
it all back again. To start fresh and grow and blossom
into something spectacular.
Day 6-Something I hope I would never have to do
So there are many topics that could be done for this thread as I am sure there are things everyone hopes they never have to do. So I have thought about this one for a few minutes and have decided that one thing I hope I would never have to do is bury one of my children
This is one of the most unnatural acts on earth. Parents are not supposed to have to bury their kids. I have seen this happen on two occasions in my life and it is something I hope I never have to go through. I watched the parents in these events just struggle mightily for years following these tragedies and some are still struggling.
I can not imagine what someone who had to do this would be going through. I remember a young girl killed at 18, a young girl killed at 16 and the grief of their parents was obvious years after the fact.
So i guess thats the one thing I hope I never have to do.
This is one of the most unnatural acts on earth. Parents are not supposed to have to bury their kids. I have seen this happen on two occasions in my life and it is something I hope I never have to go through. I watched the parents in these events just struggle mightily for years following these tragedies and some are still struggling.
I can not imagine what someone who had to do this would be going through. I remember a young girl killed at 18, a young girl killed at 16 and the grief of their parents was obvious years after the fact.
So i guess thats the one thing I hope I never have to do.
Friday, October 29, 2010
Day 5 -something I have to forgive someone for
Well I think writing this in itself could help with the forgiveness process for some people. I was quickly thinking over my life searching for a good example of this. I think I found one I am comfortable sharing with the blogging world
When I was 21 my father walked out on my mother brothers and I. At this time I remember telling him that I never wanted to talk to or see him again. For about 4 years I didnt talk to my father and I did happen to speak to him it was always argumentative. I went through depression and addiction due to this event in my life. Finally after 4 years of anger and bitterness just eating me up inside as well as a huge empty void in me I began slowly talking to my father again. Doing this took alot of time and effort. I was very mistrustful and cautious, This was also an action I had around other people as well. I was just waiting for someone to walk out and leave me again as this had happened to the person I admired more then any other. I was full of hatred and hurt
Finally through the prayers of many people and the love and support of those close to me I decided to reach out and try to begin a relationship with my father. Now 6 years later and our relationship while different then before is pretty much the same as it always was. this goes to show that unforgiveness only hurts the person holding onto the offence. I really believe one of the keys to contentment and happiness in life is letting go of the issues that cause us pain anger and bitterness. Well that's it for now Happy Halloween everyone
When I was 21 my father walked out on my mother brothers and I. At this time I remember telling him that I never wanted to talk to or see him again. For about 4 years I didnt talk to my father and I did happen to speak to him it was always argumentative. I went through depression and addiction due to this event in my life. Finally after 4 years of anger and bitterness just eating me up inside as well as a huge empty void in me I began slowly talking to my father again. Doing this took alot of time and effort. I was very mistrustful and cautious, This was also an action I had around other people as well. I was just waiting for someone to walk out and leave me again as this had happened to the person I admired more then any other. I was full of hatred and hurt
Finally through the prayers of many people and the love and support of those close to me I decided to reach out and try to begin a relationship with my father. Now 6 years later and our relationship while different then before is pretty much the same as it always was. this goes to show that unforgiveness only hurts the person holding onto the offence. I really believe one of the keys to contentment and happiness in life is letting go of the issues that cause us pain anger and bitterness. Well that's it for now Happy Halloween everyone
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Day 4-Something I have to forgive myself for
I thought for awhile about what episode in my life would I want to write about for all to see and then this one came to me. It took me a long time to forgive myself for this but over the years I have come to forgive myself for this.
Back in 2000 I started dating this wonderful young girl. We were very close and were together for almost 2 years.. During this time I naturally became close as well with her family including aunts uncles grandparents etc
So anyways while we were still dating her grandfather hadnt been well for a fair length of time. Now after we broke up we remained close friends and I was attending STU. For people who know when u drive down Priestman to get to STU you go right by the hospital. So one day i was coming back from lunch and as I was driving by the hospital the Lord spoke to me and said " I should go visit him for a few minutes and say hello and see how hes doing" Needless to say I thought to myself Ill do it tomorrow I need to get back to class.
Needless to say the next day I didnt go either and when I got home from school my exs father called me to tell me that her grandfather had passed away. For along time I couldnt forgive myself for not going to see him when that voice popped into my head and told me to go see him. I realize now what a missed opportunity that was for me to tell him how much I had enjoyed spending time at his home and talking with him..
So thats the answer to question 4 stay tuned for more tomorrow
Back in 2000 I started dating this wonderful young girl. We were very close and were together for almost 2 years.. During this time I naturally became close as well with her family including aunts uncles grandparents etc
So anyways while we were still dating her grandfather hadnt been well for a fair length of time. Now after we broke up we remained close friends and I was attending STU. For people who know when u drive down Priestman to get to STU you go right by the hospital. So one day i was coming back from lunch and as I was driving by the hospital the Lord spoke to me and said " I should go visit him for a few minutes and say hello and see how hes doing" Needless to say I thought to myself Ill do it tomorrow I need to get back to class.
Needless to say the next day I didnt go either and when I got home from school my exs father called me to tell me that her grandfather had passed away. For along time I couldnt forgive myself for not going to see him when that voice popped into my head and told me to go see him. I realize now what a missed opportunity that was for me to tell him how much I had enjoyed spending time at his home and talking with him..
So thats the answer to question 4 stay tuned for more tomorrow
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Day 2-Something I love about me
Talk about a loaded subject. How does one talk about things they love about themselves without coming across as conceited. Well I think everyone should once in awhile be reminded about the things they love about themselves as it seems like a healthy thing to do.
So for me the thing about my physical appearance that I like is my smile. I have been told it is a beautiful smile many times in my life. I just don't do it enough. I find it actually feels good when a person smiles with a genuine smile. I also like my eyes. I'm not sure why other then that I think I have deep understanding eyes that lead people to feel comfortable around me. I dont think I would like my eyes if I was walking around with these little barely open shady eyes.
As Far as emotionally goes there are lots of things I love about me. I love how much I care about other people. I think this is one of my greatest traits. I want everyone to be happy and have the opportunity to succeed in life. If any of my friends are in trouble or in a bad situation I would do anything to help them out.
I guess we are only supposed to put one thing while writing this so that is my things I love about myself today
So for me the thing about my physical appearance that I like is my smile. I have been told it is a beautiful smile many times in my life. I just don't do it enough. I find it actually feels good when a person smiles with a genuine smile. I also like my eyes. I'm not sure why other then that I think I have deep understanding eyes that lead people to feel comfortable around me. I dont think I would like my eyes if I was walking around with these little barely open shady eyes.
As Far as emotionally goes there are lots of things I love about me. I love how much I care about other people. I think this is one of my greatest traits. I want everyone to be happy and have the opportunity to succeed in life. If any of my friends are in trouble or in a bad situation I would do anything to help them out.
I guess we are only supposed to put one thing while writing this so that is my things I love about myself today
Monday, October 25, 2010
Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Well as you can see from my previous blogs I am going to do this 30 days of different topics
I figure this will help me figure out what to write and also help me look deeper into myself
so today's topic is something I hate about myself. I hate my height. I would love to be a few inches taller. I know this is a superficial thing but its something I dont like about myself. I think this could have helped in sports lol.
Emotionally one of the things I hate about myself is that I take too many things personally. When I am being criticized or singled out for something I take it personally. I think I need to continue to work on developing a thicker skin and taking comments in the context they are given.
Well thats day one for me. Come back tomorrow to see things i like about me
I figure this will help me figure out what to write and also help me look deeper into myself
so today's topic is something I hate about myself. I hate my height. I would love to be a few inches taller. I know this is a superficial thing but its something I dont like about myself. I think this could have helped in sports lol.
Emotionally one of the things I hate about myself is that I take too many things personally. When I am being criticized or singled out for something I take it personally. I think I need to continue to work on developing a thicker skin and taking comments in the context they are given.
Well thats day one for me. Come back tomorrow to see things i like about me
Saturday, October 23, 2010
something for me to blog
stolen from a blogger friend who stole it off some other blog, who stole it off a couple more. how i love the blogasphere. shall begin this tomorrow, when i am more alert and able to think about a decent post.
Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself
Friday, October 22, 2010
I survived the KFC Double Down. I decided to try one tonight and I think one will be enough for this boy. I didnt find it that good even though the chicken was good lol. Oh well it was a novelty to try it once so I did it.
Working away tonight and reading the cabbies blog as usual. I have to work tomorrow which means I will be missing the UFC. I think Lesnar could be in trouble but hope he wins.
So Im pretty boring and dont have much to write about lately so Im sorry this post might suck
Working away tonight and reading the cabbies blog as usual. I have to work tomorrow which means I will be missing the UFC. I think Lesnar could be in trouble but hope he wins.
So Im pretty boring and dont have much to write about lately so Im sorry this post might suck
Thursday, October 21, 2010
A Rant for The Day
I love coming to work and checking my email and seeing one telling me that I ve done something wrong. If I actually did something wrong then I have no problem with someone telling me a better way.
I try to do my job the best and as efficiently as I can . I am a perfectionist when it comes to work (but not anything else). I will try to go longer on the calls if thats what people want (kind of a strange request for a call center) as to not "underservice the customer. Goodness
So today I had an interview for a retail management position. It went well and I believe next week sometime I have an interview with the regional manager for the store that I might be working at. It seems like a good opportunity so I am interested in pursuing it. Other then that not alot new lately.
Hockey will be starting soon which will be fun. I missed playing last year. I like it other then the late nights.
I ve been reading one of my favorite blogs of all lately. Frederictoncabby.blogspot.com. If you want to find yourself laughing out loud while reading something check it out. I also enjoy reading the blogs of people I know.
I was thinking of my good friends in Mcphoo lately and how much fun they all were so Im going to give them a shout-out To :Eddie: Herbie: Joanne, Leona, Elenor, Glen, Connie, Frank, Woodie, Bill ,Winne, hope you are all having a great week and enjoying the snow.
Well thats all for now Peace
I try to do my job the best and as efficiently as I can . I am a perfectionist when it comes to work (but not anything else). I will try to go longer on the calls if thats what people want (kind of a strange request for a call center) as to not "underservice the customer. Goodness
So today I had an interview for a retail management position. It went well and I believe next week sometime I have an interview with the regional manager for the store that I might be working at. It seems like a good opportunity so I am interested in pursuing it. Other then that not alot new lately.
Hockey will be starting soon which will be fun. I missed playing last year. I like it other then the late nights.
I ve been reading one of my favorite blogs of all lately. Frederictoncabby.blogspot.com. If you want to find yourself laughing out loud while reading something check it out. I also enjoy reading the blogs of people I know.
I was thinking of my good friends in Mcphoo lately and how much fun they all were so Im going to give them a shout-out To :Eddie: Herbie: Joanne, Leona, Elenor, Glen, Connie, Frank, Woodie, Bill ,Winne, hope you are all having a great week and enjoying the snow.
Well thats all for now Peace
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Point Proven lol
So a few days ago I blogged about the effects of bilingulism and how it eliminates very competent people from potential employment with the govt. Well Last week I expierenced some incopentency within the govt and made me think of this subject again. I had lost my ids so I needed to get a drivers license so I would have some photo ID, I advised the person at Service New Brunswick who said no problem as long as I had some photo id in the last 5 years in NB I could just show up and get a new license. So Saturday morning I go there to get my new id and come to find out I cant get it without photo id. So because I was given the wrong info by the agent previously I had to waste my time going down there to get this done.
Other then that didnt do much on the weekend. Got groceries etc then went to church on Sun which was good.
Worked last night and was looking forward to trying a double down from KFC. But when a friend went to get them KFC was closed. Who closes at 9pm anyways lol.
Today Im just taking it easy and relaxing. I know this is a short blog but had to get the govt worker story out there. I will go more in depth with the economic effects of Bilingulism sometime this week along with whatever other interesting thing I decide to share my opinion on.
Until then Enjoy the Ramblings
Other then that didnt do much on the weekend. Got groceries etc then went to church on Sun which was good.
Worked last night and was looking forward to trying a double down from KFC. But when a friend went to get them KFC was closed. Who closes at 9pm anyways lol.
Today Im just taking it easy and relaxing. I know this is a short blog but had to get the govt worker story out there. I will go more in depth with the economic effects of Bilingulism sometime this week along with whatever other interesting thing I decide to share my opinion on.
Until then Enjoy the Ramblings
Friday, October 15, 2010
Tonights Topic
Well after not blogging yesterday I figured I'd better write one for today. I think tonight's topic will be what I;'ve done for the past couple of days and also I will write about some topics that I may blog about in the future. One of my previous blogs started a little of a debate so I think I will re examine the issue of Bilingualism in New Brunswick and how I think it hurts the long term economic stability of this province at a time when we can not
afford it. I will voice my opinion on this as well as some information to back this up.
So there are other topics I will blog about like politics. David Alward finally got sworn in as premier on Tuesday and named his cabinet. I believe the cabinet was put together well and has a good number of experience and youth. I think the next few years will be filled with tough but necessary decisions that will need to be made in order to make NB sustainable for the long term.
I believe the time is over for giving big businesses tax breaks and other perks and time for the small businesses in NB to be given the same breaks as they are what really drive the economy. I think the time for wasteful government spending has to be reigned in. I know this may mean some special interest groups and different lobbyists that are used to getting free handouts may not get them. I also know NBers will be faced with some service cuts but I believe they are necessary as long as not to health and education.
I'm sure knowing how the NB public reacts to difficult changes and decisions that there will be many upset people at some of the decisions that are made but after the mistakes of the previous 4 years as well as the economic situation worldwide that these decisions are the only way to balance the books of this great province.
Well that was a tangent I didnt plan on going into tonight. Onto a happier subject. I do have the weekend off. I don't plan on doing to much exciting but it will be nice to be able to go to bed before 3 am.
I hope to blog in a couple of days about a little less serious topic maybe something cool like food or girls lol.
Until Then peace out and thanks for stopping by+
afford it. I will voice my opinion on this as well as some information to back this up.
So there are other topics I will blog about like politics. David Alward finally got sworn in as premier on Tuesday and named his cabinet. I believe the cabinet was put together well and has a good number of experience and youth. I think the next few years will be filled with tough but necessary decisions that will need to be made in order to make NB sustainable for the long term.
I believe the time is over for giving big businesses tax breaks and other perks and time for the small businesses in NB to be given the same breaks as they are what really drive the economy. I think the time for wasteful government spending has to be reigned in. I know this may mean some special interest groups and different lobbyists that are used to getting free handouts may not get them. I also know NBers will be faced with some service cuts but I believe they are necessary as long as not to health and education.
I'm sure knowing how the NB public reacts to difficult changes and decisions that there will be many upset people at some of the decisions that are made but after the mistakes of the previous 4 years as well as the economic situation worldwide that these decisions are the only way to balance the books of this great province.
Well that was a tangent I didnt plan on going into tonight. Onto a happier subject. I do have the weekend off. I don't plan on doing to much exciting but it will be nice to be able to go to bed before 3 am.
I hope to blog in a couple of days about a little less serious topic maybe something cool like food or girls lol.
Until Then peace out and thanks for stopping by+
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Insirational sayings that I have heard or may have created (sarcastic)
I decided that now would be a good time to share these great quotes of wisdom that I have learned over the past few years with the masses.
Please note that these quotes were shared with people and must be taken with a grain of salt.
1. Bitterness is the first step to happiness.
2. Trying is the first step to failure (said to a kid at a camp I was helping out with)
3.Saved by faith not by works (used out of context by a good friend of mine)
4. 12 men can judge you or 6 men can carry you. You decide
5. At the end of the criminal rainbow isnt a bucket of gold but a 6x6 cell
6. Tombstones dont talk back
7. Where mercy is shown mercy is given. (this one I think could be true)
Well these are just a few quotes that I remember from over the past few years.
PS I forgot this one
8. I'm entitled to my entitlements
Please note that these quotes were shared with people and must be taken with a grain of salt.
1. Bitterness is the first step to happiness.
2. Trying is the first step to failure (said to a kid at a camp I was helping out with)
3.Saved by faith not by works (used out of context by a good friend of mine)
4. 12 men can judge you or 6 men can carry you. You decide
5. At the end of the criminal rainbow isnt a bucket of gold but a 6x6 cell
6. Tombstones dont talk back
7. Where mercy is shown mercy is given. (this one I think could be true)
Well these are just a few quotes that I remember from over the past few years.
PS I forgot this one
8. I'm entitled to my entitlements
Monday, October 11, 2010
Thanksgiving weekend
Well another weekend has come and gone and now I'm back to work lol. Oh Well
Saturday I played some poker and then went to my aunt and uncles for supper with my grandparents and cousin who was there. He is 5 and was telling me all about football and his different games lol. It was a fun time and of course great food.
Sunday I went to church then over to my aunts and uncles again and enjoyed a great dinner of Turkey, ham potatoes, stuffing,cauliflower and cheese caserole, For Desert my uncle made this cranberry apple crisp. It was super.
While I was there the discussion of bilingulism came up and how it is hard for English only people to get good jobs in New Brunswick. I find this to be very reverse discriminational. I am of the belief that the best person to do a job should get the job. I dont think being required to speak something other then English should be required to be considered for a government job.
I have nothing against people that speak French as I have many french speaking friends however I find this simple policy of having to speak both languages in itself causes people to think wrongly about the French speaking people. I believe everyone should have the same chances at any job no matter what language someone speaks or what color or nationality someone is.
I realize some people might not agree with this thought and will say that we are a bilingual province but can someone remember this policy that is in place is in itself forcing young New Brunswickers who may not be able to speak French to seek employment elsewhere in Canada which is hurting our provinces demographics and effecting our ability to become a self-sufficent province less depenandant on Federal Transfer payments. If we want New Brunswickers to stay in New Brunswick when they graduate from university with a big debtload we need them to be able to get good jobs and stop making it so they arent even considered based on their ability but instead being eliminated due to the fact that they can not speak a certain language.
I appreciate all comments and feedback from people regarding this topic.
Saturday I played some poker and then went to my aunt and uncles for supper with my grandparents and cousin who was there. He is 5 and was telling me all about football and his different games lol. It was a fun time and of course great food.
Sunday I went to church then over to my aunts and uncles again and enjoyed a great dinner of Turkey, ham potatoes, stuffing,cauliflower and cheese caserole, For Desert my uncle made this cranberry apple crisp. It was super.
While I was there the discussion of bilingulism came up and how it is hard for English only people to get good jobs in New Brunswick. I find this to be very reverse discriminational. I am of the belief that the best person to do a job should get the job. I dont think being required to speak something other then English should be required to be considered for a government job.
I have nothing against people that speak French as I have many french speaking friends however I find this simple policy of having to speak both languages in itself causes people to think wrongly about the French speaking people. I believe everyone should have the same chances at any job no matter what language someone speaks or what color or nationality someone is.
I realize some people might not agree with this thought and will say that we are a bilingual province but can someone remember this policy that is in place is in itself forcing young New Brunswickers who may not be able to speak French to seek employment elsewhere in Canada which is hurting our provinces demographics and effecting our ability to become a self-sufficent province less depenandant on Federal Transfer payments. If we want New Brunswickers to stay in New Brunswick when they graduate from university with a big debtload we need them to be able to get good jobs and stop making it so they arent even considered based on their ability but instead being eliminated due to the fact that they can not speak a certain language.
I appreciate all comments and feedback from people regarding this topic.
Friday, October 8, 2010
A thanksgiving Rant
I was told when I came to work again that if I applied and received a new schedule then I had to stay on it for 60 days. I understood that and it was fine.
Well tonight come to find out that my original rotation of 4 weeks which included 2 consecutive weekends off per month is now being shortened to 3 weeks which will eliminate one of my weekends. I find this unfair as i am expected to work the same schedule for 60 days yet my schedule can be changed at a moments notice.
Well I do have this weekend and next weekend off which will be nice. I dont think I have anything excited planned for this weekend however next weekend I am going to Moncton for the day which will be fun.
Being this is Thanksgiving weekend I guess I should list the things in my life I'm thankful for. So lets start with Family, and Friends, Im thankful for health and a job and living in a province with a Conservative Government
I hope everyone has a wonderful thanksgiving and spends time with their friends and loved ones
Well tonight come to find out that my original rotation of 4 weeks which included 2 consecutive weekends off per month is now being shortened to 3 weeks which will eliminate one of my weekends. I find this unfair as i am expected to work the same schedule for 60 days yet my schedule can be changed at a moments notice.
Well I do have this weekend and next weekend off which will be nice. I dont think I have anything excited planned for this weekend however next weekend I am going to Moncton for the day which will be fun.
Being this is Thanksgiving weekend I guess I should list the things in my life I'm thankful for. So lets start with Family, and Friends, Im thankful for health and a job and living in a province with a Conservative Government
I hope everyone has a wonderful thanksgiving and spends time with their friends and loved ones
Thursday, October 7, 2010
A Few Random Thoughts
I was watching the hilights last night of Roy Halladay throwing a no hitter for the Philedelphia Phillies in the first game of the playoffs and started thinking. Here are some of the thoughts that went through my head.
I wonder how many people were thinking that he should still be pitching for the Blue Jays and may have felt a little rejected or upset. Thenk I started to apply this to real life.
How many people go through life without complaining about the circumstances they are working in. They come to work everyday and do their job to the best of their ability while the whole time wishing for an opportunity to be the best to compete for the grand prize of their profession. Finally after years of working hard with little fanfare or celebration the person gets that big break and moves to a bigger corporation with a great chance for advancement and celebration.
I admire the person who in their prime years makes a sudden change in their path to start on their way to greater fortune and contenment. Especially when their is no gaurantee of sucess. For these people happiness and sucess are more important than staying in the rut you might be stuck in.
I am one of those people who feel stuck in a rut sometimes so hopefully my own writing will inspire me to make the risky move if needed and required in order to be happy and sucessful.
Peace out for now and thanks for reading until next time
I wonder how many people were thinking that he should still be pitching for the Blue Jays and may have felt a little rejected or upset. Thenk I started to apply this to real life.
How many people go through life without complaining about the circumstances they are working in. They come to work everyday and do their job to the best of their ability while the whole time wishing for an opportunity to be the best to compete for the grand prize of their profession. Finally after years of working hard with little fanfare or celebration the person gets that big break and moves to a bigger corporation with a great chance for advancement and celebration.
I admire the person who in their prime years makes a sudden change in their path to start on their way to greater fortune and contenment. Especially when their is no gaurantee of sucess. For these people happiness and sucess are more important than staying in the rut you might be stuck in.
I am one of those people who feel stuck in a rut sometimes so hopefully my own writing will inspire me to make the risky move if needed and required in order to be happy and sucessful.
Peace out for now and thanks for reading until next time
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Back To The Grind
Well here I am at work for the evening or early morning considering I 'm here until 2AM. This is a bad time of year to have a shift like this with Baseball playoffs and NHL season starting up. Oh well at least I can get home in time to see the the highlights.
So I'm not sure what to make todays topic so maybe I will just write about my day. I got up around 1030 this morning and decided to play a quick 1 table poker tournament on Party Poker. I lost in the first one but won the second one so I managed to win 12$ lol. Going to get rich quick I tell ya.
After that I fell asleep for a bit until my mom came back from my brothers so I got to see from my nephew for a few minutes which is always a treat. He is getting so big and wont be 2 until January.
So I was talking to a coworker of mine the other day about someday running my own buisness and that has gotten my creative buisness juices flowing again. This is something I would greatly like to do and to be able to serve people in a useful venture. I believe I possess the skills and exp necessary to do this. The only thing missing is the right idea and the capital of course.
I think everyone deep inside them has a dream or a vision of where they would like to see themselves. How this dream is realized is something that I think alot of us struggle with. I believe deep down each person knows what they want to be doing and where they would like to be. The mission is to discover how to get to that place. I believe this to be true in my life. For me and I'm sure many others the journey will continue.
Peace till next time
So I'm not sure what to make todays topic so maybe I will just write about my day. I got up around 1030 this morning and decided to play a quick 1 table poker tournament on Party Poker. I lost in the first one but won the second one so I managed to win 12$ lol. Going to get rich quick I tell ya.
After that I fell asleep for a bit until my mom came back from my brothers so I got to see from my nephew for a few minutes which is always a treat. He is getting so big and wont be 2 until January.
So I was talking to a coworker of mine the other day about someday running my own buisness and that has gotten my creative buisness juices flowing again. This is something I would greatly like to do and to be able to serve people in a useful venture. I believe I possess the skills and exp necessary to do this. The only thing missing is the right idea and the capital of course.
I think everyone deep inside them has a dream or a vision of where they would like to see themselves. How this dream is realized is something that I think alot of us struggle with. I believe deep down each person knows what they want to be doing and where they would like to be. The mission is to discover how to get to that place. I believe this to be true in my life. For me and I'm sure many others the journey will continue.
Peace till next time
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
My first Blog
Well in this day and age it seems everyone has a blog, So I figured why not join the crowd. So this is the first installment of ramblings of a Matt Man. On this blog the topics will vary depending on the mood I'm in or the issues I feel should be discussed.
Well I should give a little bit of an introduction of myself to start my debut blog. I am a 29 year old single guy currently working for a company called Xplornet. I basically help people who are having issues with their internet connections or issues with their email program. Definately not a job I want for the rest of my life but I think most of society would say that about their current employment. I recently moved back to Fredericton New Brunswick after 14 months in a town called Fort Mcpherson in the Northwest Territories. While there I was working for Arctic Co-operatives Ltd as an Assistant Manager for the local Co-op Store there.
This was a great opportunity for me to explore a different part of the country and to meet some of the most amazing people that I have had the opportunity to meet. The simplicity of life there along with the friendliness of people and the respect for the elders of the community are things I will always remember. The love and support shown there to each other during times of loss are something everyone should strive for.
Previously too that I also lived in the Village of Kimmirut Nunavut also working in retail. This was a place of great fun and great sorrow. I made some great friends that I still talk to and think of often. I learned a totally new way of life and ate somethings that I didnt know people ate. However there were also times of great sorrow and sadness there. A dear friend of mine serving there as a RCMP officer was shot and killed at the age of 20 years old. I remember him often and have relived that day many times. The kindness and compassion of the people there during that time will never be forgotten.
I enjoy playing sports, poker, music, children and family as well as being at church and also just relaxing.
I'm not sure what else to write for this first post but I'm sure there will be much more stuff that I will shar with you all over the life of this blog. Any comments or topic suggestions are welcome.
Signing off for now.
Well I should give a little bit of an introduction of myself to start my debut blog. I am a 29 year old single guy currently working for a company called Xplornet. I basically help people who are having issues with their internet connections or issues with their email program. Definately not a job I want for the rest of my life but I think most of society would say that about their current employment. I recently moved back to Fredericton New Brunswick after 14 months in a town called Fort Mcpherson in the Northwest Territories. While there I was working for Arctic Co-operatives Ltd as an Assistant Manager for the local Co-op Store there.
This was a great opportunity for me to explore a different part of the country and to meet some of the most amazing people that I have had the opportunity to meet. The simplicity of life there along with the friendliness of people and the respect for the elders of the community are things I will always remember. The love and support shown there to each other during times of loss are something everyone should strive for.
Previously too that I also lived in the Village of Kimmirut Nunavut also working in retail. This was a place of great fun and great sorrow. I made some great friends that I still talk to and think of often. I learned a totally new way of life and ate somethings that I didnt know people ate. However there were also times of great sorrow and sadness there. A dear friend of mine serving there as a RCMP officer was shot and killed at the age of 20 years old. I remember him often and have relived that day many times. The kindness and compassion of the people there during that time will never be forgotten.
I enjoy playing sports, poker, music, children and family as well as being at church and also just relaxing.
I'm not sure what else to write for this first post but I'm sure there will be much more stuff that I will shar with you all over the life of this blog. Any comments or topic suggestions are welcome.
Signing off for now.
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