Friday, October 29, 2010

Day 5 -something I have to forgive someone for

 Well I think writing this in itself could help with the forgiveness process for some people. I was quickly thinking over my life searching for a good example of this. I think I found one I am comfortable sharing with the blogging world
    When I was 21 my father walked out on my mother brothers and I. At this time I remember telling him that I never wanted to talk to or see him again. For about 4 years I didnt talk to my father and I did happen to speak to him it was always argumentative. I went through depression and addiction due to this event in my life. Finally after 4 years of anger and bitterness just eating me up inside as well as a huge empty void in me I began slowly talking to my father again. Doing this took alot of time and effort. I was very mistrustful and cautious, This was also an action I had around other people as well. I was just waiting for someone to walk out and leave me again as this had happened to the person  I admired more then any other. I was full of hatred and hurt
   Finally through the prayers of many people and the love and support of those close to me I decided to reach out and try to begin a relationship with my father. Now 6 years later and our relationship while different then before is pretty much the same as it always was. this goes to show that unforgiveness only hurts the person holding onto the offence. I really believe one of the keys to contentment and happiness in life is letting go of the issues that cause us pain anger and bitterness. Well that's it for now  Happy Halloween everyone

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Day 4-Something I have to forgive myself for

  I thought for awhile about what episode in my life would I want to write about for all to see and then this one came to me. It took me a long time to forgive myself for this but over the years I have come to forgive myself for this.
   Back in 2000 I started dating this wonderful young girl. We were very close and were together for almost 2 years.. During this time I naturally became close as well with her family including aunts uncles grandparents etc
  So anyways while we were still dating her grandfather hadnt been well for a fair length of time. Now after we broke up we remained close friends and I was attending STU. For people who know when u drive down Priestman to get to STU you go right by the hospital. So one day i was coming back from lunch and as I was driving by the hospital the Lord spoke to me and said " I should go visit him for a few minutes and say hello and see how hes doing" Needless to say I thought to myself Ill do it tomorrow I need to get back to class.
  Needless to say the next day I didnt go either and when I got home from school my exs father called me to tell me that her grandfather had passed away. For along time I couldnt forgive myself for not going to see him when that voice popped into my head and told me to go see him. I realize now what a missed opportunity that was for me to tell him how much I had enjoyed spending time at his home and talking with him..

  So thats the answer to question 4 stay tuned for more tomorrow

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Day 2-Something I love about me

 Talk about a loaded subject. How does one talk about things they love about themselves without coming across as conceited. Well I think everyone should once in awhile be reminded about the things they love about themselves as it seems like a healthy thing to do.

  So for me the thing about my physical appearance that I like is my smile. I have been told it is a beautiful smile many times in my life. I just don't do it enough. I find it actually feels good when a person smiles with a genuine smile. I also like my eyes. I'm not sure why other then that I think I have deep understanding eyes that lead people to feel comfortable around me. I dont think I would like my eyes if  I was walking around with these little barely open shady eyes.
  As Far as emotionally goes there are lots of things I love about me. I love how much I care about other people. I think this is one of my greatest traits. I want everyone to be happy and have the opportunity to succeed in life. If any of my friends are in trouble or in  a bad situation I would do anything to help them out.
  I guess we are only supposed to put one thing while writing this so that is my things I  love about myself today

Monday, October 25, 2010

Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.

Well as you can see from my previous blogs I am going to do this 30 days of different topics
I figure this will help me figure out what to write and also help me look deeper into myself

so today's topic is something I hate about myself. I hate my height. I would love to be a few inches taller. I know this is a superficial thing but its something I dont like about myself. I think this could have helped in sports lol.
 Emotionally one of the things I hate about myself is that I take too many things personally. When I am being criticized or singled out for something I take it personally. I think I need to continue to work on developing a thicker skin and taking comments in the context they are given.

Well thats day one for me. Come back tomorrow to see things i like about me



 

Saturday, October 23, 2010

something for me to blog

 stolen from a blogger friend who stole it off some other blog, who stole it off a couple more. how i love the blogasphere. shall begin this tomorrow, when i am more alert and able to think about a decent post.


Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Friday, October 22, 2010

I survived the KFC Double Down. I decided to try one tonight and I think one will be enough for this boy. I didnt find it that good even though the chicken was good lol. Oh well it was a novelty to try it once so I did it.
 Working away tonight and reading the cabbies blog as usual. I have to work tomorrow which means I will be missing the UFC. I think Lesnar could be in trouble but hope he wins.
  So Im pretty boring and dont have much to write about lately so Im sorry this post might suck 

Thursday, October 21, 2010

A Rant for The Day

 I love coming to work and checking my email and seeing one telling me that I ve done something wrong. If I actually did something wrong then I have no problem with someone telling me a better way.
  I try to do my job the best and as efficiently as I can . I am a perfectionist when it comes to work (but not anything else). I will try to go longer on the calls if thats what people want (kind of a strange request for a call center) as to not "underservice the customer. Goodness

    So today I had an interview for a retail management position. It went well and I believe next week sometime I have an interview with the regional manager for the store that I might be working at. It seems like a good opportunity so I am interested in pursuing it. Other then that not alot new lately.
   Hockey will be starting soon which will be fun. I missed playing last year. I like it other then the late nights.
I ve been reading one of my favorite blogs of all lately. Frederictoncabby.blogspot.com. If you want to find yourself laughing out loud while reading something check it out. I also enjoy reading the blogs of people I know.
  I was thinking of my good friends in Mcphoo lately and how much fun they all were so Im going to give them a shout-out To :Eddie: Herbie: Joanne, Leona, Elenor, Glen, Connie, Frank, Woodie, Bill ,Winne, hope you are all having a great week and enjoying the snow.
Well thats all for now Peace 


 

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Point Proven lol

 So a few days ago I blogged about the effects of bilingulism and how it eliminates very competent people from potential employment with the govt. Well Last week I expierenced some incopentency within the govt and made me think of this subject again. I had lost my ids so I needed to get a drivers license so I would have some photo ID, I advised the person at Service New Brunswick who said no problem as long as I had some photo id in the last 5 years in NB I could just show up and get a new license. So Saturday morning I go there to get my new id and come to find out I cant get it without photo id. So because I was given the wrong info by the agent previously I had to waste my time going down there to get this done.
   Other then that didnt do much on the weekend. Got groceries etc then went to church on Sun which was good.
Worked last night and was looking forward to trying a double down from KFC. But when a friend went to get them KFC was closed. Who closes at 9pm anyways lol.
   Today Im just taking it easy and relaxing. I know this is a short blog but had to get the govt worker story out there. I will go more in depth with the economic effects of Bilingulism sometime this week along with whatever other interesting thing I decide to share my opinion on.

Until then Enjoy the Ramblings

Friday, October 15, 2010

Tonights Topic

 Well after not blogging yesterday I figured I'd better write one for today. I think tonight's topic will be what I;'ve done for the past couple of days and also I will write about some topics that I may blog about in the future. One of my previous blogs started a little of a debate so I think I will re examine the issue of Bilingualism in New Brunswick and how I think it hurts the long term economic stability of this province at a time when we can not
afford it. I will voice my opinion on this as well as some information to back this up.
   So there are other topics I will blog about like politics. David Alward finally got sworn in as premier on Tuesday and named his cabinet. I believe the cabinet was put together well and has a good number of experience and youth. I think the next few years will be filled with tough but necessary decisions that will need to be made in order to make NB sustainable for the long term.
 I believe the time is over for giving big businesses tax breaks and other perks and time for the small businesses in NB to be given the same breaks as they are what really drive the economy. I think the time for wasteful government spending has to be reigned in. I know this may mean some special interest groups and different lobbyists that are used to getting free handouts may not get them. I also know NBers will be faced with some service cuts but I believe they are necessary as long as not to health and education.
  I'm sure knowing how the NB public reacts to difficult changes and decisions that there will be many upset people at some of the decisions that are made but after the mistakes of the previous 4 years as well as the economic situation worldwide that these decisions are the only way to balance the books of this great province.
 Well that was a tangent I didnt plan on going into tonight. Onto a happier subject. I do have the weekend off. I don't plan on doing to much exciting but it will be nice to be able to go to bed before 3 am.
  I hope to blog in a couple of days about a little less serious topic maybe something cool like food or girls lol.
Until Then peace out and thanks for stopping by+

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Insirational sayings that I have heard or may have created (sarcastic)

I decided that now would be a good time to share these great quotes of wisdom that I have learned over the past few years with the masses.
 Please note that these quotes were shared with people and must be taken with a grain of salt.
1. Bitterness is the first step to happiness.
2. Trying is the first step to failure (said to a kid at a camp I was helping out with)
3.Saved by faith not by works (used out of context by a good friend of mine)
4. 12 men can judge you or 6 men can carry you. You decide
5. At the end of the criminal rainbow isnt a bucket of gold but a 6x6 cell
6. Tombstones dont talk back
7. Where mercy is shown mercy is given. (this one I think could be true)

Well these are just a few quotes that I remember from over the past few years.
PS I forgot this one
8. I'm entitled to my entitlements

Monday, October 11, 2010

Thanksgiving weekend

 Well another weekend has come and gone and now I'm back to work lol. Oh Well

   Saturday I played some poker and then went to my aunt and uncles for supper with my grandparents and cousin who was there. He is 5 and was telling me all about football and his different games lol. It was a fun time and of course great food.
    Sunday I went to church then over to my aunts and uncles again and enjoyed a great dinner of Turkey, ham potatoes, stuffing,cauliflower and cheese caserole, For Desert my uncle made this cranberry apple crisp. It was super.
 While I was there the discussion of bilingulism came up and how it is hard for English only people to get good jobs in New Brunswick.  I find this to be very reverse discriminational. I am of the belief that the best person to do a job should get the job. I dont think being required to speak something other then English should be required to be considered for a government job.
  I have nothing against people that speak French as I have many french speaking friends however I find this simple policy of having to speak both languages in itself causes people to think wrongly about the French speaking people. I believe everyone should have the same chances at any job no matter what language someone speaks or what color or nationality someone is.
 I realize some people might not agree with this thought and will say that we are a bilingual province but can someone remember this policy that is in place is in itself forcing young New Brunswickers who may not be able to speak French to seek employment elsewhere in Canada which is hurting our provinces demographics and effecting our ability to become a self-sufficent province less depenandant on Federal Transfer payments. If we want New Brunswickers to stay in New Brunswick when they graduate from university with a big debtload we need them to be able to get good jobs and stop making it so they arent even considered based on their ability but instead being eliminated due to the fact that they can not speak a certain language.

I appreciate all comments and feedback from people regarding this topic.

Friday, October 8, 2010

A thanksgiving Rant

I was told when I came to work again that if I applied and received a new schedule then I had to stay on it for 60 days. I understood that and it was fine.
  Well tonight come to find out that my original rotation of 4 weeks which included 2 consecutive weekends off per month is now being shortened to 3 weeks which will eliminate one of my weekends. I find this unfair as i am expected to work the same schedule for 60 days yet my schedule can be changed at a moments notice.
    Well I do have this weekend and next weekend off which will be nice. I dont think I have anything excited planned for this weekend however next weekend I am going to Moncton for the day which will be fun.
  Being this is Thanksgiving weekend I guess I should list the things in my life I'm thankful for.  So lets start with Family, and Friends, Im thankful for health and a job and living in a province with a Conservative Government
I hope everyone has a wonderful thanksgiving and spends time with their friends and loved ones

Thursday, October 7, 2010

A Few Random Thoughts

  I was watching the hilights last night of Roy Halladay throwing a no hitter for the Philedelphia Phillies in the first game of the playoffs and started thinking. Here are some of the thoughts that went through my head.

  I wonder how many people were thinking that he should still be pitching for the Blue Jays and may have felt a little rejected or upset. Thenk I started to apply this to real life.
  How many people go through life without complaining about the circumstances they are working in. They come to work everyday and do their job to the best of their ability while the whole time wishing for an opportunity to be the best to compete for the grand prize of their profession. Finally after years of working hard with little fanfare or celebration the person gets that big break and moves to a bigger corporation with a great chance for advancement and celebration.
  I admire the person who in their prime years makes a sudden change in their path to start on their way to greater fortune and contenment. Especially when their is no gaurantee of sucess. For these people happiness and sucess are more important than staying in the rut you might be stuck in.
   I am one of those people who feel stuck in a rut sometimes so hopefully my own writing will inspire me to make the risky move if needed and required in order to be happy and sucessful.
  Peace out for now and thanks for reading until next time

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Back To The Grind

 Well here I am at work for the evening or early morning considering I 'm here until 2AM. This is a bad time of year to have a shift like this with Baseball playoffs and NHL season starting up. Oh well at least I can get home in time to see the the highlights.
   So I'm not sure what to make todays topic so maybe I will just write about my day. I got up around 1030 this morning and decided to play a quick 1 table poker tournament on Party Poker. I lost in the first one but won the second one so I managed to win 12$ lol. Going to get rich quick I tell ya.
  After that I fell asleep for a bit until my mom came back from my brothers so I got to see from my nephew for a few minutes which is always a treat. He is getting so big and wont be 2 until January.
  So I was talking to a coworker of mine the other day about someday running my own buisness and that has gotten my creative buisness juices flowing again. This is something I would greatly like to do and to be able to serve people in a useful venture. I believe I possess the skills and exp necessary to do this. The only thing missing is the right idea and the capital of course.
   I think everyone deep inside them has a dream or a vision of where they would like to see themselves. How this dream is realized is something that I think alot of us struggle with. I believe deep down each person knows what they want to be doing and where they would like to be. The mission is to discover how to get to that place. I believe this to be true in my life. For me and I'm sure many others the journey will continue.

Peace till next time

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

My first Blog

  Well in this day and age it seems everyone has a blog, So I figured why not join the crowd. So this is the first installment of ramblings of a Matt Man. On this blog the topics will vary depending on the mood I'm in or the issues I feel should be discussed.
  Well I should give a little bit of an introduction of myself to start my debut blog. I am a 29 year old single guy currently working for a company called Xplornet. I basically help people who are having issues with their internet connections or issues with their email program. Definately not a job I want for the rest of my life but I think most of society would say that about their current employment. I recently moved back to Fredericton New Brunswick after 14 months in a town called Fort Mcpherson in the Northwest Territories. While there I was working for Arctic Co-operatives Ltd as an Assistant Manager for the local Co-op Store there.
      This was a great opportunity for me to explore a different part of the country and to meet some of the most amazing people that I have had the opportunity to meet. The simplicity of life there along with the friendliness of people and the respect for the elders of the community are things I will always remember. The love and support shown there to each other during times of loss are something everyone should strive for.
      Previously too that I also lived in the Village of Kimmirut Nunavut also working in retail. This was a place of great fun and great sorrow. I made some great friends that I still talk to and think of often. I learned a totally new way of life and ate somethings that I didnt know people ate. However there were also times of great sorrow and sadness there. A dear friend of mine serving there as a RCMP officer was shot and killed at the age of 20 years old. I remember him often and have relived that day many times. The kindness and compassion of the people there during that time will never be forgotten.
     I enjoy playing sports, poker, music, children and family as well as being at church and also just relaxing.
   I'm  not sure what else to write for this first post but I'm sure there will be much more stuff that I will shar with you all over the life of this blog. Any comments or topic suggestions are welcome.

Signing off for now.